Travelindreamworld…

wuoooh my tasks are never never be completed indeed I write here first before I move on into another tasks. I am completely tired, so Im trying for something I’m not die for which if it is happened, it may probably caused by tons of work.

lastly I feel nostalgia just like years ago,  for reviewing the breaking dawn, the last part of twilight saga. for me, it is no so special love story. but what makes me fascinated is that the character, bella and edward are very very much similar to me, and him, of course.

I feel like I’m watching my own love life, I dont know why but naturally I own many bela’s character. to love and to be loved. simply that way, Edward has a perfect way to love Bella more that she could imagine. I like them staring each other, how their emotions could beat their ego, and how decision to keep their ‘uncommon’ love still ongoin stronger and stronger.

Bella knows edward is uncommon, but she still love him no matter what. on the other hand, edward knows bella is also uncommon  to him, he feels like this person has something unsual, which makes him feel different and want to be closed anytime.

and love doesnt have to be ruled, even the most uncommon people could love each other, then love happened for no reason,just happened. love doesnt need to be perfect, but it needs to treat perfectly over.

aaah its only my fantasy how love would be soo passionate as like that. I dont know, but recently fallin in love for me is a very dangerous experience I have never imagine. I could breakthouh any border which could precluded my desire or passion. well, it is not that scary, I’m still normal and standing on the earth, not flying away into the sky..

and yes its true, love come in a strange way, and I feel like he was a stranger, maybe he felt that too. we were stranger for first.

many people ask me why I still love him until now, why I still surviving although many bad things happened. why you still bla-bla-bla…

you know, I have one only reason to this, this just I am uncommon.

yes I am uncommon. I am not ordinary person who run away of problems, I am not coward. I take my decision, I love him no more, and I will keep him till the last no matter how hard it is. because I promise God I really wanna marry him.

we’re now separate. it is not even better. he’s umcommon for me. how he treats me with the way I don’t even understand why. sometime I get mad, sometimes I get bored. but I know he did it for me, just for no other reason, except love.

we still keep loving in uncommon way.

maybe I’m blind now, or deaf, or whatever, but I am not stupid.

but I cant stand to be so faaar away like this for years.

I keep yelling everyday to call, just a simple call, what are you going to do today, and I am living my life.

dont know how long I have to keep like this. and yes, i still uncommon..